hey!.. finally got my handphone back!!..


oh yeah..


AND _ _ AND I ARE NOTHIN OK!!


FOR ONCE AND FOR ALL, BOTH OF US ARE NOTHIN..


WE'RE JUST FRIENDS... U GOT THAT!!


GRRRR....HATE RUMORS WHICH ARE OUT OF THE QUESTION OR OUT OF THE WORLD...

gotta chao here.

Friday, March 30, 2007

today was one whole tired day for me i guess but at least i'm kinda awake together with me friends.. plus i hav a new friend and her name is vino. she's my closes friend.. we always talk to each other... but of cuz i always do mixs around with my other friends... oh and the best thing is i was caught happily chewin my gum in my mouth by Mr. Sulaiman. hees.. but it's the first time.. i was just opening and closin my mouth and he caught me. pfff.... aniways... had p.e lessons.. and we play rugby. bla bla bla.. and girls guide.. we had a captain's ball match. VS the S.JAB and NPCC.. the hall was fill up with loud noises of girls cheering for the guides while NPCC and S.JAB cheering for their own groupies.. for half and hour. but then i went home at 4.oo as i've gotta go for the weddin family photo takin.. my cousins wedding. this sunday it's the real one... hav to be the early bird again...grrr.... was ask to accompany my mum and dad to a shoppin centre tomorrow.. from morning till afternoon..gonna be restless when i come back.. seriously... and now acturlly i'm suppose to be doin my school homework but.... i'm just too lazy to do.. every friday i'll be slackin and kinda lazy to do. always wait till last minute or bout 9 plus thn i'll start doin my homework or so..that's me.. XD.... nahx... not really... it's 8.51 now. 9 more minutes, seriously i'll start workin on my homework abit b4 i hav no time for it... yep yep. i'm sooooo exaushted right now. stoppin here yeah.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

nothing much today but as usual... my classmates askin me for chewing gum..if not sweets like MENTOS or wad so ever stuff that i brought.. i'm the supplier yeah.. haha.. nahx.. kiddin...as days passes by i'm ain't no more supplier for sellin and distributin chewing gums to my friends.. but will b givin out sweets as usual... the bookshop is always selling sweets so i'm always buyin.. well... not always... but to tell ya the truth.. i do always crave for sweets from the bookshop.. XD.. anihow,.. out of space, it just rain like cats and dogs for awhile.. then went home with vino my new friend..i LOVE her loads yeah.. she's just sooo nice...i'm soo socialble now a days... just love making new friends for who they are or if their nice to me, i'll treat them the way they treated me.. but if their sooo evilish and devilish to me then please mind get out of my side yeah.. haha.. woooo soo mean.. that's the way.. hmmm.. let's see.. this sunday is my cousins BIG DAY.. it's her WEDDING DAY.. and dam i wanna wake up later on saturdays like bout 12 plus... cuz sunday my whole family gonna wake up veri early for my cousins wedding..... that's like the early bird for the all of us man.... the wedding is not halfday but ONE FULL DAY THIS SUNDAY... TELLIN YA.. AFTER THE WEDDIN UESS I DUN REALLY FEEL LIKE GOIN TO SCHOOL THE NEXT DAY AND THT'S MONDAY. or mayb i should make myself SICK! that's the best thing.. heees*..i don't really feel like goin to school after some occasions like for example now.. the wedding... cuz i just dun feel like it...hmph!.... niways.. i've gotta stop here... dan! have not completed my maths homework.. i don't know how to do..aniway, it's just 1 question plus part a and b... my maths TOTALLY suxs ok. seriously.. haha.

o well, it's 9.13pm and i'm gonna stop here
see ya.=))

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

o well.. it's been days i've not blog yeah.. kinda buzy with school work and stuff.. o yeah.. though i've said tht i'll b onlije only on weekends.. but u see my online on weekdays.. but i'm always buzy on weekdays.. so that's my status for msn. BUZY. TOTALLY TIRED. barely open my eyes again.. had my maths test today... kinda alright for me..EOA lesson was such a bore for me except when hakeem made me laugh.. n kinda ignore me when i talk to him.. his irritatin.. haha.. as usual.. always askin for sweets..and i brought chewing gum to school.. and people were askin me for chewing gum.. i'm gonna b the supplier for this few weeks until the day when i say i'm sold out of chewing gum.. FnN.. was kinda bord too until my classmates make some lame jokes that make me ticklish.. did some work.. and CME.. was being punished by this teacher.. firstly.. we didn't have the courtesy to stand up and greet the teacher.. secondly, we were talkin our way through.. not the girls but the guys.. it's isn't our fault.. didn't do anithin. but we were given a piece of paper and that's our project work.. needa do on kindness and integrity. like 1 or 2 weeks to finish it. that suxs.
and suppose to go for prefet trainnin.. but i can't.. hav tuition.. didn't bother bout mdm nurli just skip the prefect meetin.. HECKS her.. HATE her.. arg.. tuition i was like dozin off but keepin myself awake... ain't got idea why i became sooooo dead tired this few days..... niways, i've gotta chao right now..

see ya

Monday, March 26, 2007

nothin to write but i went to my granny house at yishun and went to the gym for like 1 an a half hour.. after gym.. rested for awhile and went swimmin.. long time didn't get to swim. miss swimmin soo much..niways, b4 goin into the pool, there's foreigner guy.. his like lookin at me.. but then his cute. hahah.. swam until 6.oo.. got up, another foreigner guy bout 3o plus or 4o plus he look at me in a way that his smilin... b4 goin into the pool i went to the spa for fun.. those veri young boy he kept lookin at me..until the bubble hav stopped. then i got up... OMG!..niways, not gonna be online from today till this friday.. meanin i'm only gonna be online on weekends..


PEOPLE.. PLEASE NOTE, I'LL B ONLINE ON WEEKENDS.. WEEKDAYS IS A REVISION AND STUDY FOR ME. AND SORT OF BLOGGIN AND LISTENIN TO MUSIC AS MY LEISURE.. SO.. NOT CHATTIN DURIN WEEKDAYS YEAH..xD

Saturday, March 24, 2007

hey yo! wassup.. let's start of with this morning... suppose to be goin early to sembawang mrt to ''sell flags'' but i went for X-ray for my braces.. but then i went in the afternoon with my make up on.. all my friends were like'' why is ur face so red'' i was like'' i went for marathon''..-_-''.. niways, when i was there, went helpin michelle out.. for awhile.. and they were terribly exshausted. so, michelle and floric went sleepin when that LOUISA got nothin to do but to annoy floric..until she got bord of it and went to sleep.. while imran was pleadin us to follow him to sun plaza with him as his freakin a** bord.. haha.. half way through.. michelle called her friends to check out where they were.. her friends was at bugis.. so was sooo excited and happy and i was ask to tag along with her all the way to bugis.. didn't reach there in time as her classmates was about to gather together with their classmates.. o yeah btw

DAM YOU MR.TAY! HOW DARE YOU CALL ME FUNNY NAMES.. IF U DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO PRONOUNCE THEN DON'T!. YOU DUN HAV THE RIGHT TO CALL ME NAMES LIKE WHAT MONKEYS EAT.. HATE TEACHERS LIKE YOU TO JUST MAKE FUN OF MY NAME U BAMBOO STICK! XD. hope you'll b EXPELLED out of our school ASAP!.. hahahahhaha.. ''thxs michelle for tellin me information''. HIS got a BIG MOUTH WHICH HE CAN'T CONTROL AND JUST SPIT OUT MY SECRETS!

niways.. his ain't my chinese teacher animore! YAYNESS!!.. his way of teachin us chinese is... zzzzzzzzzzz.. and his always talkin to us bout BGR.. askin us if we hav ani boyfriend.. or wadever...his boring.. niway i just hate him for ur information.

niways, just gotta end it here.
see ya,.

Friday, March 23, 2007

i'm all in a CONFUSION..after breakin with oswin. yiwen started askin me for a patch back. OMG!.. no wonder his always talkin to me and stuff... let's just skip that.. today was like.. i don't know.. form teacher detain us for recess just b cuz of one stupid form.. didn't get to eat or drink.. so i was kinda sufferin in tht cpa room yeah until after school, went to buy POKI my fav.. haha. strawberry flavor.. had prefect meetin at 2.3o till bout 3.15.. so.. didn't get the chance to change into my uniform..felt like pukin durin halfways of guides cuz i didn't eat.. i felt like faintin.. until i told the teacher that i was purkish..i tag her down to the office to get some biscuits and she gave me a packet of drink.. brought it up to the classroom to share... let's not talk bout that.. have to act some drama.. bout social etiquettes..bla bla bla.. wadever that is..

hate sellin flags.. haha.. tomorrow is a half a day for me.. from the afternoon till 6.oo imagine that.. have to sell flags and bla bla bla..but thn i'll b goin in the afternoon... cuz in the mornin hav to go for ex-ray for my braces. then hav to pack my stuff for tomorrow..as in like my prefects long sleeve shirt tie, pin... my shoes...and stuff yeah...


always felt like running away from home
but i just can't do it
always felt like slittin my arm to vent my anger
but it does seems to hurt
always felt like doin silly things
but its not me.

sometimes when my life gets stuck up
i don't really know what to do
but to just shed those invinsible tears
where nobody knows.
lookin out at the window
made me felt like commitin suicide.
thinkin of what should i do.
always lead me with some difficulties.

my love life is somehow complicated as always seems to be
bein in love is serious thing to me.
what the hell did they do this to me.
betta to be single then attach.
spreadin rumors is what i DETEST the most.*SERIOUSLY*
feelin emotionless now as if there's no life or wadver for me.=]

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

i'm sorry that i hurt you
it's somethin that i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through
i wish that i could take it all away
and be the one whocatches all your tears
that's why i need you to hear

i've found a reason for me
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

i'm not a perfect person
i never meant to to those things to you
and so i have to say b4 i go
that i just want you to know

i've found a reason for me
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

i've found a reason to show
a side of me you didn't know
a reason for all that i do
and the reason is you.

hoobasktank- the reason.

Monday, March 19, 2007

gosh!.. today was my bad day i guess.. hearts pumpin while tryin to give HIM back the ring.. whole reaction was felt with depression..just felt so sad..but then givin back the ring will at least make me feel free.. as in like make me start a new leaf..yern the past and stuff.. but i wasn't the one who gave him back the ring as in FACE-TO-FACE.. nawwarah help me...''THXS SO MUCH FOR HELPIN ME EVEN THOUGH I WAS FELT WITH FEAR..'' then later got back my english results. got 27 an a half... ARG!! *CUK! COULD HAVE GOTTEN 3O PLUS OUT OF 50.. STUPID ME.. I MEAN LAZY ME FOR NOT CHECKIN AND READIN THE INSTRUCTIONS PROPERLY!! BLAME MYSELF FOR THAT.. THEY ASK US TO CIRCLE THE ANSWER WHILE I WENT WRITTIN DOWN THE ASNWER!! THAT GOT ME INTO THIS STATE MAN!! IF NOT I COULD HAVE GOT 30 PLUS FOR ENGLISH ...dam!...lesson learn... to read instructions carefully!!.. ahole. hahahahah.. niways.. after that it was maths.. i was like dreadin for the results.. heart was pumpin furiously.. lol.. nahx.. i was just dreadin.. until.. dam!... 6 more marks to past.. total scoare was /40.. arg... didn't concentrate enough... i did concentrate but not enough..... don't wanna say the marks.. cuz it's too embarassing..seriously... well,, mother tongue.. haha.. don't talk bout my chinese.. it sucks totally.. gonna drop in the drain.. seriously my mum will be lookin for a chinese tutor for me anitime and aniwhere after lookin at my results when the report book is given out... she'll be'' omg.. ur what happen to your chinese.. u need a tutor'' bla bla bla.. there goes her again..naggin away.. and beggin me to find a chinese tutor to improve...niways.. acturlly i'm suppose to control myself from not touchin the computer... cuz i wanna try to bannin myself from usin the computer too long.. cuz i've been usin the computer for like ever and ever. except for when i'm buzy revisin and studyin, i'll just on my music and fixs the voluje and start work..other then that when i'm free... just tryin veri hard to restrict myself from usin the computer for hours... but i'm alreadi addicted to it... can't be help...unless there's a way.. just put a password to my computer and completely sweep off the password from my brain...OMG! that's no way i'm gonna do that man.. cuz there will be no computer and i can die without it...haha..niways, kinda no mood right now.. gotta leave in bout 4 minutes time.. see ya

Sunday, March 18, 2007

this post is just a short and simple post as i've got like 5 minutes b4 i go to bed and get goin to school tomorrow.. niways.. tomorrow is just the day that i start draggin my feet to school.. and then in the afternoon as in durin recess.. start doin duties.. and omg!.. i don't know how am i gonna return the ring to him... that's gonna be sooooo emotional.. heart breaks easily and i'll be sobbing away i guess.. time after time.. day after day.. we'll slowly get it over and start of something new..

have to get goin and continue with my life..don't think soo much.. niways, i'm now havin a slight flu.. and i've seriously gotta brush up and topple down on my comfatable mattress as my dad is back in singapore.. so i've got no room of my own.. POOR me have to sleep on the mattress which is on the floor.. buti'm fine with it.. as long as it's comfatable.. hahaha..niwaiys, mama and papa calling me... so yeah.. good nitez everybody..sweet dreams..

zzzzzzzz

Saturday, March 17, 2007

hey!.. well.. my dad came back yesterday and today we went out to have lunch together with my dad in raffles city.. we ate sushi tei. every trip he comes back, we're always eat sushi...lol.. niways.. went window shoppin for awhile..bought titbits from marks and spencer.. then we left.. send my sis to beach road for acupuncture.. waited for her bout 15 minutes...while waitin..mum and i went to kampong glum community club to see what programs they have... too bad i can't join ani of those prgrams.. not a member.. i'm soo exaushted.. i just came back with my parents and kenneth ask me out. lol..i was like'' i just got back together with my parents.. kinda tired.. lazy to go out..sorri'' lols.. it's always the wrong timing...pfff.. aniways.. i'm now SINGLE AGAIN! is that good or bad news?.. it's good news i guess.. niways.. gonna stop here..

Thursday, March 15, 2007

hey!.. today is another day or practise for prefect investiture.. tiring goin up and down the stage.. but then again they make us laugh.. o and louisa... she just make me laugh my ass off.. i dunno wht's with me.. i kept on laughin.. she's so..... niways dun talk bout her.. she's my best friend..although we love bullyin each other..waited for all the prefects to come.. suddenly i heard my oswin shoutin at fatimah.. guess it's b cuz of me tht's why his like that..told him not to talk it to hard.. i know how he feel after the break up.. but.... i kinda feel sad too acturlly.. cuz we've been together for like 3 almost 4 weeks and almost a month... he just change alot his attitude towards me i guess... aniways..why can't people pronounce my name properly.. is it that hard to pronounce my name??...so embarrasin.. this sec 4 girl can't pronounce my name properly.. she was like...'' wht's ur name'' i say'' bernadette'' she was like'' nvm u go..'' LOL... second time she don't even know how to pronounce my name..GRRRRR.... nvm... finish at bout 12.3o... but was ask to u-turn back to school to help Mr.Sulaiman.. me,samanth,michelle and floris was the first shift.. we help mr.sulaiman until 2.oo...and we went off.. suppose to go tampines to eat but floris and samantha wasn't feelin well.. so samantha and i went to the eunos hawker to eat...talk bout lots of stuff.. she kept disturbin me bout.. some other stuff.... while i kept on bitin on ICE cubes..

dam!.. no matter how i plead my mum for me to go to samantha's chalet, guess she won't let me go...grrrrrr... I WANNA GO TO HER CHALET..!!! PIG AR..HAHAHA..

NIWAYS I'M ALL IN ACTURLLY..

STOP HERE.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

hey people..!.. well, the story goes like this.. first thing in the morning, my mum woke me up.. she woke up at about 7 plus as she needs to go to work.. ok let's get straight to the point yea.. shall not waste time talkin bout my mum.. haha.. i slept till 9.3o.. what's with me today.. when i wake up, two legs on the floor.. gonna stand up but i fell to the ground.. it's like my left leg is still sleepin and i can't stand up properly until waitin for some time then i could stand up straight.. aniways, went takin a bathe..do wadever im suppose to do.. by the time i did everythin, it was like 11.oo.. went down sittin on the chair.. lookin at the past photo's.. ok... straight to the point again.. haha. at about 11.15 i receive a sms from zhen ling kor sayin'' mei2, i'm goin to reach mrt soon le.. where are you?'' [ kor, if u happen to read my blog, well, is tht wht u ask me.. if i'm not wrong?..].. i was like'' so fast.. and i'm still at home.. better go now'' i sms back sayin'' sorry if i'm late cuz i was in the toilet just now.. i just left my house. reachin about 15 mins time'' he reply sayin'' so fast?'' i reply back sayin'' ??.. i was at the toilet just now.. i left my house bout few mins ago.. now walkin to mrt soon.'' he reply back'' see you in 15 mins'' i reply'' kk'' so... went to the mrt station he wasn't there yet.. so i went to 7-11 to buy a packet of tissue as i'm like sweatin..

ok.. once we saw each other, i bought my standard chartered card as i've LOST my ezy-link card.. of cuz i paid usin my own money.. XD..took mrt[duh] to orchard.. when we reach, we still need to walk for awhile to the movie theatre.. bought tickets to the ghost rider show. it was not fully booked. haha.. o yeah.. wana see the ticket... hees.

here's the picture of the ticket.. ontop. haha.. RIDER PG..[ parental guardian].. lol..the show was nice...seriously..XD..after the show, went to far east shoppin centre to walk around.. he bought shirts for either himself or for both of them to use.. LOL.. while waitin to get his shirt, i was like'' the girl pretty right'' he say'' i dont think so'' -_-''... kor'' i knw the girl pretty.. u just do wan to say right..'' lol.. no lar just kiddin.. after that, went lookin at other stuff... poor kor went broke bcuz of me.. feel so guilty..apologies to you.. although u say tht u will treat me.. THANKS alot man! XD.. then it started to rain.. so nice and sweet of him to lend me his jacket.. i was like'' are you sure ur ok..?'' he was like'' ya.. '' lucky he brought along umbrella.. if not i pity him lars.. i wore his jacket until i was about to reach home then i took it off and gave it back to him.. o ya and he send me all the way home. he followed me as in he wants to knw where i stay so i became his tour guide.. while in the afternoon he brought me to orchard he became my tour guide.. LOL...exchange guide.. haha.. *laugh all you want*... i knw... lucky my grandmother didn't see the both of us walkin tgt if not i'm in HOT soup... well, all i can say is

kor, thxs for treatin me today.. so nice of you.. and so sweet of u lendin me ur jacket when its rainnin only for awhile..seriously it was just nice for me although it's quite long..=#.. it's not a insult.. no offence yea... THANKS LOTS...luv u..haha.. lol..

o well, i'm now all in after havin fun watchin movie..walkin around..i'll stop here..
whoever reads my blog please TAG YEAH..

cherios..[bye]..

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

well well well... today was the prefect investiture..ZZz...dam tired..suppose to be one full day but since we cooperated i guess, we ended at 3.25 bout 3.3o..woohoo!..... o ya and my friends make me blush... cuz we're suppose to walk to the circle.. whn we're in the hall, practisin walkin as if we're modelin..whn it was my turn... i was like wanna go don't wanna go but in the end i went.. all of them was like disturbin us.. cuz it was me and oswin.. i was like OMG!... shyam was like smilin.. i was like smilin... all my friends was like'' omg bernadette ur blushin.. ur face is soo red..'' i was like'' i knw...'' lol... but in the end..seriously.. i broke up with him...long story.. niways i shall end here..

Sunday, March 11, 2007

well.. obviously my head is like kinda....sort of spinin like hell... cuz of guys prob.. 3 guys chasin after me. i mean 2 while i've alreadi got my guy... but my guy... his kinda....irritatin at times... but then.. he told me his goin out to watch a movie but i told himi can't go n he was like'' nvm.. there's still another girl with me'' i wa slike '' still can say nvm..pfff... i dunno whether to break or not to break..aniway i was suppose to write bout some stuff but it just slipped of my mind..imagine 3 GUYS goin after me... omg!!...niways... what am i suppose to say... i've completely forgotten..niways i needa make my own choices.. as wht my friends say dun think too much...
niways....


SERIOUSLY MY HEAD IS BLANK.. DUN REALLY KNW WHT TO SAY
gonna end here...see ya

Saturday, March 10, 2007

hey!.. i'm back from the camp!..well, suppose to be in school right now having the campfire thingy.. but my stomach was terribly pain..well, yesterday was friday right.. duh.. nuthin really happen.. but then first thing first..just wanna say

Zhen Ling kor kor: thxs for writtin for me just the 10 lines of what i told you to write.. how sweet of you.. THANKS ALOT MAN!!''.. hees..
Nawwarah: so sorry!... thank YOU SOOOOOO MUCH GURL FOR WRITTIN More THN 10 LINES.. hees..love you..haha.

straight after school, went lookin for ms foo to give her the 150 lines of sentences.. and i was jumpin up and down excitedly after gettin back my phone!... MISS MY HANDPHONED DAM MUCH MAN... kk.. nvm bout that.. let's talk bout camp..

afternoon bout 4 plus. played some games.. did physical activities first.. then i was the 2nd last girl to do it.. so my hand suddenly slipped off the monkey bar and i fell backwards and landed on my left BUTT!..oww. that hurts!!.. i felt the pain.. it's like goin up to my head... just for awhile.. i almost can barely stand up.. my friend help me up to the chair... and that's when i started to feel the pain in my stomach..... i just kept quiet util bout 10 plus.. i went to inform miss tan bout it...
then i called my mum.. went to the canteen to rest.. this guy name sebastian came towards me and so nice of him to give me sweet.. hees*.. ask me how and where i fell and stuff..ouh and others like my juniors..sec 1s.. but those are my mly friends. their nice..and carin towards me. not like one chinese gurl..she's like kinda blur like a sotong..pff.. told her to help me carry my bag but she told me she didn't know where is it..zzzz... in the end hav to go up myself together with my mum to take my bag.. went to the office.. took my valueables.. went signnin off.. and went back home..

today.. mum woke me up early in the mornin bout 9.00 to bring me to the doctor.. dam! waited for about almost 2hrs.. cuz my number is 24. and it's on like number 9.. hav to wait wait until i doze off in the clinic..zzzzz... after that, went to my rental house in east meadow help my mum to clear the stuff over there b4 rentin it to other people.. stayed there half the day.. and i slept there..was veri tired....
niways, i'm gonna stop here... and my stomach still hurts..

arg!!..
see ya

Thursday, March 08, 2007

hey! sup!.. well, people,friends,strangers,god-brothers, who are readin my blog, please note that i'll not be online from tomorrow onwards till this sunday.. as i've got UGI camp.. 3 days 2 nights..MISS YOU GUYS!... HEES..XD... o well.. today nuthin interestin.. but went lookin for ms foo after school.. and was told to do her a favour... you wanna know wht's the favour?.. write 150 lines sayin'' i will not use handphone in class'' what the TOOT..'' haha.. nvm.. nawwarah now, is helpin me out to write some while i write some as well.... that's IN ORDER TO ET BACK MY HANDPHONE!... pfffff.. my right hand gonna break sooner or later.... arg.......niways, had my chinese test today.. kinda good.. sort of.. as usual.. got naggin from mr. sulaiman.. n some students got a scoldin from mr. sulaiman..wasted our time durin CPA lesson..aniways, that's none of my busniess.. all i care bout is I JUST WAN MT HANDPHONE BACK!!...DYIN TO GET IT BACK MAN..'' SERIOUSLY SPEAKIN..

o well, gotta stop here. gotta continue writtin that 150 lines.. a hole... XD...
not only that but gotta go revise my maths..wish me luck yeah..

love u guys lots..XD xoxo.
take care.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

ARG!! I'M SOO FREAKING HELL ANGRY AND FUSTRATED! I'VE NOT GOTTEN BACK MY HANDPHONE!!..MISS FOO TOLD ME SHE JUST PASS MY HANDPHONE TO MR.JERRY TAN BUT HE CLAIMS THAT HE HAS'NT GOTEN ANITHIN!! WTH!!!. THOUGH HE KNOWS THAT I'M A GOOD GURL.. SO WHAT.. I JUST WANT MY HANDPHONE BACK!! CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT MY HANDPHONE. AND I'VE GOTTA LET MY MUM KNOW.. BUT I'M JUST TOO AFRAID TO LET HER KNOW.. WHENVER I'M ASK MY LET MY PARENTS KNOW BOUT SOMETHIN, MY HEART BEATS SO FAST.. SERIOUSLY I'LL FREAK OUT EASILY NAD BREAK DOWN.

P.S. SOMEBODY HELP ME PLS!!! HELP ME GET MY HANDPHONE BACK!! I'M DYIN TO GET MY HANDPHONE. IT'S ALREADI BEEN TWO DAYS!. AND I'VE NOT GET MY HANDPHONE BACK!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

yo!. seriously hate my SICKENIN DAM DARN LIVE. CAN I JUST KILL MYSELF?. SERIOUSLY... mum always naggin at me, wat els... sometimes put me in the story.. or always.. not always for JUST SIMPLY LOVE THINKIN NEGATIVELY!! LIKE FOR EXAMPLE JUST BCUZ I DON'T WANNA GO TO MY GRANDMOTHER HOUSE, SHE THINKS THAT NEXT TIME WHEN SHE'S OLD, I WON'T GO AND VISIT HER...WTH! c'mon!!!!!! why must you think negatively!! like shut ur mouth lar!.. don't know why u love thinkin positively.. and just b cuz i don't wanna follow my mum.. my mum was like'' even my youngest don't wanna follow me.. '' and she went sighin and says'' nxt time when i'm old nobody will come and accompany me..'' start to talk nonsence and rubbish.. SERIOUSLY SPEAKIN.. MY MUM HAV BEEN LIKE NAGGIN AT ME.. OR ALWAYS LIKE TO MAKE MY LIFE SOOOO......ARG!!! CAN I SAY'' JUST TREAT ME AS THOUGH I'M DEAD TO YA U MOTHERFCUKER!'' RIGHT INFRONT OF HER FACE!!. i know i'm soo mean. and EVIL.. but why the hell must she think negatively!!! i just wanna stay at home..and i will go n visit my grandmotehr once in a while... cuz the more i go to her house i feel bord...and when i'm studyin, she thinks i'm just buildin castle in the air, or just starrin blankly at the book.. HELLO!!! CAN'T YOU SEE OR READ MY FACE.. I'M STUDYIN!! oh and thxs zafir or whoever whom told me that i have white hair.. I'M ALL STRESS UP...my parents can't see through... and i'm NOT LAZY BUM OKIE... CUZ MY TUITION IS EVERY WED!. AND SOMETIMES I DO NEEDA STAY BACK AFTER SCHOOL FOR SOME MEETINS AND PREFECTS STUFF.. but then i can excuse myself from prefect.. and later ask them what's goin on and so on.. she thinks i'm lazy to think.. GET A LIFE MUM! I HAVE ENOUGH OF ALL THIS NONSENCE.. YOU JUST CAN'T SEE THROUGH ME THAT'S ALL... YOU DON'T GET TO SEE ME IN SCHOOL 24HRS.. OF CUZ U DUNNO WHT THE FCUKIN HELL WAS I DOIN IN SCHOOL.. I'M FREAKIN STRSSS OUT OK... GET THAT!! dam! talkin bout this make me fustrated!!!.. o yeah... and whenever i get sick, she will come scoldin me or naggin at me as in'' ur sick right?..serve you right for eatin all the rubbish or not eatin proper meals everyday..'' bla bla bla and the list goes on.. but if my brother get sick, she'll say'' dun make me heart ache u know... better get well soon... my poor baby..'' bla bla bla... such an AHOLE man... arg!!!! i'm not jealous.. why should i be jealous in the first place....acturlly i know that my mum acturlly dotted my brother and sister the most! whenever they throw their tamtrum to them or talk loudly to them, my mum won't scold them.. but whenever i talk loudly to them or just like kinda pist off and talkin to them in a angry way, they'll be like'' no need to shoud right... '' or '' can u please talk nicely instead of talkin to rudely''... WTH man.. wht is this......



ARG!!!!! P.S. '' MUM, CAN U DO ME A FAVOUR? TREAT ME LIKE YOU'VE NEVER GAVEN BIRTH TO ME BEFORE?.. OR TREAT ME LIKE I'M NOTHIN TO YOU....'' SERIOUSLY.

my life is gettin worsen!! naggin and naggin and naggin.. oh yeah and things that i wanna look for like hip-hop or singin lessons, she will ask me to find it myself... other then that, she'll be like'' hope u can practise more of ur guitar..... piano.... how i wish you can play like them''...

what's this man...arg..

niways, gotta go now.

GET A LIFE YA'LL...

life is one-way street, and we are not comin back.XD

a HOLE!... MY HANDPHONE HAVE BEEN CONFISCATED BY MS.FOO. I ADMIT IT WAS MY FAULT TOO. FOR LENDIN IT TO ELFEE. BUT WHY DID HE MSG INFRONT OF THE TEACHER!.. .ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAKE ME SOO FUDDUP TILL I CRIED.. MUMMY!!!!! CAN'T GET MY HANDPHONE BACK UNTIL TOMORROW!!.

I'M BREAKIN DOWN BUT I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANIMORE.

JUST SO NOT MYSELF TODAY!!!!!!!

Monday, March 05, 2007

hey! today's just a normal day for me..waited for liyana to come out from the mrt toilet.. then went to school.. bla bla bla.. after assembly.. went to my common test room.. had my english test today.. kinda easy i guess.. after that.. went to the library..let's not talk bout that..the most shockin and surprisin thing ever happen in my life... out of the sudden oswin HELD my hands.. i'm like OMG!!!... STARTIN TO BLUSH.. AND TERRIBLY SHY.. MY HEART WAS BEATIN...omg.. what am i gonna do.. cuz acturlly my mum allow me to hav a guy but not to the extend..niways. his my guy.... but how am i suppose to tell him..i'm now speechless. seriously. niways i've gotta go study for my maths tomorrow...be back soon yeah..

Sunday, March 04, 2007

TOMORROW IS THE DAY WHERE I'M HAVIN MY ENGLISH COMMON TEST....daM!.. BUT THEN.. I'M JUST GONNA READ MY STORY BOOK WHICH I'VE ALREADI DONE IT AND GONNA BE DOIN ABIT OF MY ENGLISH BOOK.. WHICH I've DONE IT..WEL.. LET'S JUST HOPE THERE'S SOME EAISER QUESTIONS AS IN LIKE... AIN'T GOT QUESTIONS FOR ME TO THINK SO HARD YEAH....ENGLISH IS JUST ALL ABOUT READING THAT'S ALL..but than... still i have english and maths o yeah and EOA..hav to sit beside AZAR!!! EW!!! HIS SUCH A PERVERTIC..SERIOUSLY.....BETTA STOP TALKIN BOUT IT B4 MY GOOSE PIMPLES START COMIN OUT......GRRRRR....pff... niways... i wanna go do somethin els now...

till then
see ya..

Saturday, March 03, 2007

arg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dam darn jealous man... suppose to be goin to F.O.B concert today with nawwarah! but mum don't allow..she says it isn't worth it..cuz it's expensive!..nvr been to a real life band concert in MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE!... arg!!! LIFE ISN'T FAIR SOMETIMES... WHY CAN'T I GO!!... SO WHAT IF SHE'S NOT INTO ROCK,METAL,RnB,HIP-HOP,SOUL KINDA MUSIC. DOES'NT MEAN SHE CAN STOP ME FROM GOIN...ARG... JEALOUS OF MARCUS AND NAWWARAH!.. IT'S A MUST TO ASK THEM HOW WAS IT LIKE OVER THERE....I SUPPOSE THEY'LL SAY IT'S CRAZY.. IT ROCKS and wadever it is.. seriously... they'll defenitely have fun... niways... went for my dental appointment today.. and they make it even tighter!..my teeth hurts.. OUCHIES..

Friday, March 02, 2007

my day was hell WET!! and EXAUSHTED!.. ran 10 rounds during p.e.. joggin together with sabariah... while joggin, we were talkin...skip that.. next it was EOA till 11. then had recess..did my duty.. as usual. that USELESS BUM! edward!!.. was doin my duty in the hall while he just stand there like STATUE....hahaha...shhhh...recess time, he kept walkin away after every 5 or 4 minutes...gave lots of reasons... which are INVALID!...pffff....VOTE HIM OUT!..hahaha..so evil..o yes i am. after recess it was CPA. always got scoldin from Mr.Sulaiman cuz of some day dreamers and some idiots in the class...*ss lar they all.. after that, had prefect meetin..bla bla bla... walk together with oswin...for awhile.. then i went changin... off we go to EAST COAST for our CCA.. we did a sandwich making competition.. then suppose to be makin sand castle.. but it rain heavily like PIGS and NOODLES. haha.. just got to learn that not long ago from the internet..saw purple lightning.. was drenched from head to toe.. shieverin my *ss of... today is just nothin really much lar.. except for that AZAR.. his soooo pervert...ew!...aniways, wanted to revise but i just can't.. bro in my mum's room watchin his SOCCER!... and scoldin'' SHIT LAR!... ARG!!! *CUK!.......WA LAO EH...'' ..lol.... seriously...and btw, my common test is this comin monday!.... DAM!.. but luckily i've revise abit for my english although people always say there's no need to study for english.. but just wanna revise.. just in case...hees*... niways, i'll be stoppin here..