exams are like 12-11 days away. did practically nothin except for that little bit of revisin.. bout 3hrs and 3o minutes.. that's not enough.. signnin off at 10.00.. to do some revisin again b4 goin to sleep.. my life sucks lar.. i dun have my won cupboard to put my bags or wadever that im havin right now... at least i put it where it was right after use yeah.. and my mum was like naggin at me for puttin it which ever way i want.. it's like WTH.. at least i put it back where it was.. i didn't throw it aniwhere.. alreadi i dun have my own room.. where the hell do you expect me to put it. or where do you want it to be..i can my as well chuck it in the bin for i care.. i'm alreadin 14 turnin 15 SOON!!! need to have my own room and PRIVACY.. don't tell me when i'm 16 or 17 i'm still sleepin with my parents...SO JEALOUS OF MY BROTHER AND SISTER. why the *cuk my grandmother thought of havin a extra two rooms for my brother and sister and not me!!!! i have my own life ok.... if it's not my grandmother then it's my family.. or my parents who think that way...i'm sooooooooooooooo PITYFUL since young..though i'm a rich bitch..doesn't mean i live in a wonderful and EXTRAVAGANZA kinda life... i'm always havin my downs though i have my ups but not that much aight*....... i mean now that my cousin hav moved out after her wedding.. why not leave that room and space for me.. i know my aunt needs that room.. but at least leave some space for me to use it as my own room...why wanna use it as a store room!!...grrrrrr.....one day i might go and drive myself nuts.. and i'll just think of some crazi things to do to myself...SERIOUSLY... why is this always happenin to me.. i'm alreadi 15 all grown up.. i'm kinda organized now with my books in the new shelf.. and slidin drawer. and i always have the tendercy to put back my things after use.. i save up my money in my wallet.. ok mayb i spent all sometimes.. but..... pffff.

i'm all in a mess right now.. that's why my blog link says
www.insanitymessylife.blogspot.com..

that's how my life is right now..

i just can't understand the ways
of all the men and their mistakes
you gave them all your heart
and they rip it all away

you told me how much you love me
and how our love was meant to be
and i believe in you
i thought you would set me free

you should've just told me the truth
that i wasn't the girl for you
still, i didn't have the clue
so my heart depended on you

althought i'd say i hate you now
though i'll shout and curse you out
i'll always have the love for you
because i am a girl

been told a man will leave you cold
get sick of you and bored
i know that it's no lie
i gave my all, still i just cry

never again will i be fooled
to give my all when nothing's true
i won't be played again
but i will fall in love again

i loved you so
now you leave me in the cold
how could this be
i thought that you'd only love me

into the night
i will pray that you're alright
you hurt me so
i just can't let you go

you took advantages of my willingness
to do anithing for love
now i'm the only one in pain
will you please take it all away

never thought being born a girl
how i can love you and be burned
and now i will build a wall
to never get torn again.

kiss- because i am a girl.