LEAVE ME TO CRY ALONE IN THE DARKNEST.

today was maths paper 1 and 2.. went to school..from 8.-8.20 went revisin for paper 1 maths.
well.. paper 1 maths guess i could handle at least 50% of it.. seriously. after paper 1.. it was break time..saw dino and told atikah to help me in some stuff.. but i was like trying to staunch her from tellin him.. aniways.. i went to my friend.. minutes later, saw dino.. quickly went lookin for atikah.. atikah went askin dino bout the girl called BABY TIARA in friendster.. gosh!.. atikah came back tellin me'' dino say because of BABY TIARA, his tryin to forget me.'' somethin like that.. i was like controllin myself. relaxin myself.. until i shed tears.. stood up and walk to the toilet.. but no tears came out..was still tryin to hold back my tears until we went to the classroom, i was sobbing tears out...the story goes like this

me: dino, can i ask you a question?...eyy.. u like me izzit?
dino: hehe
me: why u laugh?.. is it the truth?
dino: more like _ _ _ _ me..
me: love?
dino: yerp..
me: *readin message and rollin my eyes and grinnin frm ear to ear*
dino: cuz i've been lovin you since sec 1.
me: izzit?...ouh.. let me think bout it first.
dino: yerp.. so what's ur answer?
me: i don't know if it will afact my studies.. not that i want to reject you.. we'll see bout it* meanin is a yes*
dino: ok..
me: =]
dino: ok.. i've gotta go n sleep. gd night. luv ya.
me: ok.. night*. sweet dreams..=]]

nxt day..skip thw whole of morning and afternoon. no one wanna know bout tht.. haha.
at night.. after dinner.. skip that..around 9 plus.handphone rang.. went answerin my phone.

me: hello..
dino: bernadette..
me: yar..?
dino: dino..
me: ok..-.-''
dino: bout yesterday, don't tell anione k.. cuz it's irritatin if they ask me lots of questions..
me: ok..
dino: promise?
me: yerp.''
ends the call..

nxt nxt day. went browsin into friendster.. saw this baby tiara profile. have his photo in HER profile.. went askin for help from atikah..
atikah: dino, are you serious bout bernadette
dino: serious.
*sabariah msgin him*: if you are, then say i love you tmr infront of her.
dino: hey. it's not easy to say that three words ok
sabariah: of cuz it's easy.
dino: no it's not cuz u've not feel the real love like i did.
sabariah: i felt it b4 ok.
dino: hmmmm...?
siti took over
siti: btw, in ur friendster, i saw this username baby tiara, in her profile, there's ur picture.whose that?
dino: my fiancee
i took over
me: really?
dino: yes
me: then what am i to you? scandal?
dino: no.. i really love you but her parents and my parents wants us to get married when we're old enough.
me: then how can you be with me when you have the girl in ur heart and in ur mind?''
no reply until the next day that's today.. and in school, after paper 1, atikah went askin him.

4 minutes later atikah came to me
atikah: bernadette..
me: yesh..
atikah: she said......she said...
me: she ey..? oh..she.
atikah: eh no.. he say that cuz of her(baby tiara), he wan to forget bout me
me: silents in progress..while tears startin to boil up to my eyes gonna shed it out..
atikah,raudhah,fatin,amira,sabariah: bernadette,....relaxs... don't cry...
me: stood up, walk fast to the toilet..calmin myself down..went down again.
went to the canteen took all my stuff...
amira,fatin,siti,raudhah: bernadette... relaxs...dun cry....
went to the classroom....

5 minutes later i started sheddin tears non-stop after 10 minutes.. hahah
seriously... I HATE GUY SOMETIMES!!! I HAD ENOUGH OF GUYS LAR!..guys are like WADEVER..grr... why... don't wanna build up the story again and him!. don't wanna think bout HIM!!... then paper 2...
hearts pumpin like what.. kinda nervous when lookin at all the sums.. OMG!.
it was like a 30% for me.. didn't finish drawin the graph for the last question!!! spend too much time on the questions that are suppose todo on fullscape!...grrr... gonna SCREW MATHS PAPER 2!!...after that, went home together with my friends.. oh yeah.

JUST WANNA SAY THANKS TO FATIN,SITI,AMIRA,SABARIAH AND RAUDHAH.thxs for standin by my side when i'm in no mood today!.. thanks lots. LUV U GUYS MAN!..oh n atikah for helpin me all when i'm in much help.

hangin out with my friends for awhile and i went home..
pffff... now i can relieve stress by listenin to sentimental songs..and to shed tears all i want if i happen to cry again in my sleep... i ain't got school tomorrow!!!!! yes!.. but still have to study my FnN.. tht's my last subject! and exams are wayyy over..woohoo!.. but gross! camp is comin close to the date. pffff.. and i've alreadi sign up for some music composer thingy.. which should i go?..
aniways, i know this is soooooooo long.. cuz i ain't really buzy animore.. so i've got the time to post a beautiful mistake story yeah..

you're gone from here
and soon you will disappear
cause everybody's changing
and i don't feel right

so little time
try to understand that i'm
tryin to make a move to stay in the game
i try to stay awake and remember my name
but everybody's changing
and i don't feel the same.