yo!.. wassup people....o well..today wasn't really that much interestin but durin EOA lesson, miss wee taught us..and zharif went immitatin her voice again and his name got written down on a piece of paper..haha..niway, after EOA, it was english.. mr.siva(2nd) was pleased with the gurls for pinnin up their frindge..=]]..then it was CPA...did some work checkin, and corrections.. then it was readin period...did nothin except for doin our mathslast minute homework..oh as well as talkin and laughin in class..then it was recess.. saw wayne dancin as in tiltin himself left and right.. like shrek!.. hahahah...shhhht..=]...was laughin like crazy..so was siti...niway, don't wanna talk bout schoo.. after school, went to look for miss tan as siti was asked to practise the speach or should i say the recollection for NDP parade...miss tan,sit,amira,sabariah,fatin and me was there.. then we started practisin.. o well, minutes later, we started laughin out loud on the way we're sayin the lines..espeacially me and siti.. cuz of the pointin to help to say in a angry way or in a loud voice tune..can't stop laughin even a second or a minute..and so miss tan join our laughter...X)).. niway, after that, stayed back in school as sabariah had the marchin thingy.. but at last, she doesn't need to do as atikah will be doin it.. oh and btw, atikah was kinda suspended by smokin in school.. she pleaded mr.jerry tan for forgiveness.. she could stay but for one week.. another week, guess she'll be at home...if i ain't wrong... o well, stayed behind in school to finish up our maths homework as well as to revise a little of maths..while doin, we were also makin a hell out of a noise in the canteen..runnin and laughin like small kiddos.. left school around 5 plus.. went eunos mrt station to meet a guy from ITE which sabarish suppose to meet.. and finally saw the guy.. she was kinda embarrase to meet him as it's her first time. but in the end, she met the guy..then we went home.. worst thing ever goin home today.. once i've got home, mum was naggin at me bout my health and all.. i didn't say anithin bout my mum not allowin her to take care of me...i told her i didn't say that and she just say it striaght forward as in'' u wanna die right?...let you go n die then'' somethin like that.. i just kept my mouth shut..but in my heart, its almost like a piece of paper... once torn, it can't be ment.. that's how i felt when my mum acturlly curse me..was sobbin in the toilet while takin a bathe and after takin a bathe...omg!.. which mum would ever say that to their daughter.. seriously, i just can't take it animore..she's been harsh to me at times...i know i'm a little sensitive and all and i take things seriously as in i feel offended at times.. i know..but some things, i can't control and have to vent my anger infront of my mum...or even just locked myself in the toilet, vent my anger and start to sob.. that will make me feel better.. just to let you know, if i'm sad or angry and i feel like cryin, i'll lock myself in the toilet for half an hour and cry myself to sleep..no kiddin ya'll..but please... i ain't gonna sleep in the toilet.. just gonna lay and sleep on the bed..
SERIOUSLY, my life sucks lately..all laughter and smiles just to make me feel happy.. but in my heart, it's always lays lots of problems that i've not confide in...or have not brought out to anione yet except to my friend, siti..thanks for ya comfort yeah..appreciated..x))...will always keep in contact.. o well, i've just said my peace..gonna revise my chinese and mayb read story books and get to sleep..b4 goin sleep, gotta pack for tomorrow's guides parade....grr.....niway, see ya dudes..

i open my eyes
i try to see but i'm blinded by the white light
i can't remember how
i can't remember why
i'm lyin here tonight

and i can't stand the pain
and i can't make it go away
no i can't stay the pain

how could this happen to me
i made my mistakes
got no where to run
the night goes on
as i'm fadin away
i'm sick of this life
i just wanna scream
how could this happen to me

everybody's screamin
i try to make it sound but no one hears me
i'm slippin off the edge
hangin by the thread
i wanna start this over again

so i try to hold onto a time when nothin mattered
and i can't explaine what happened
and i can't erased the things that i've done
no i can't

(repeat the chorus)

i made my mistakes
i've got no where to run
the night goes on
as i'm fadin away
i'm sick of this life
i just wanna scream
how could this happen to me.