hey yo!.. o well, it's like 6.15pm and i've just got back from OUTTIN with my sec school friends as well as my last years pri school friends.. today teachers day performance was great. love the performances and the singing plus the band and all...bout 10 plus we went home.. apparently, i've completely forgotten to bring along my wallet, soo, poor me have to go all the way home to get my wallet. fatin and siti was asked to follow me.. pity em'.. haha,,sorry guys to trouble ya.. rested at my house for awhile.. then. i went out at 1.oo met sabariah,zulaikha and afiqah at yu neng primary. saw joel and azmil.. azmil was like'' whose this'' as in can't remember me.. in malay..-.-''..zzzzzzz...the wei lik came.. and soo stayed in schoo till bout 2 or 3 plus and we went galeventing around bedok interchange first.. while comin out or the pri school, i saw JACKY!!!!..his my pri 4 friend..until now we still can remember each other.. his now becomin more handsome.. he was like lookin at me and i was like whose this.. but still i smiled.. in the end, i knew he was jacky..he chage alot that's why.. both of us smile and wave at each other...all of us went tampines but joel went home.. didn't do anithin much but wei lik... grrrrrr.. kept on irritatin me as in steppin on my shoes as well as sabariah's and zulaikha's shoe.. but the most is me and sabariah..zzzz.. wei lik have also changed..but talkin have'nt.. as in when we call him he'll be like'' what..''...zzz...all we did was starrin at this girl doin the para2 dance..*ehem. this girl is acturlly quite fat lar..* hahahahahaha...around 5 plus we went to tampines interchange and took a bus home.. the best thing is, while we were at the bus platform, i didn't see where i was goin and so my left leg fell on the road path as in like gonna fall.. sabariah,afiqah,zulaikha and me was like giggin and laughin.. as well as sabariah's cousin...:$...niway, zulaikha and i took bus 67 home.. barely open our eyes..soooooooooo exaushted. guess, i'm gonna do a little bit of my holiday assignment later if i can be awake.. if not i'll do tomorrow after comin back from down town east yeah. till then, i wanna DOZE OFF..

see ya

Thursday, August 30, 2007

hey yo! wasup peeps.. o well, today's thursday and tomorrw is TEACHERS DAY just wish all the teachers happy teachers day.. cuz i ain't got time to rap present and give out to the teachers.. and woooohooo.. i've got tons of holiday assignment. not really tons of assignment.. but quite alot.. that will keep me accupied. not only homework but to read up my EOA textbook and the catch up yeah.. that will allow me to stay at home and do all those stuff that are need to be done and not allowin me to go to far away places like VIVO CITY..LOL. aniway, time passes real fast and our exams are comin and also my malay friends fastin month are comin.. so have to respect them as in dun eat infront of them. i'm a good angel. kekeke..first period was mother tongue.felt like dozin off.. toooooooo sleepy..1hr.took me half an hour to copy the whole passage. and 5-10 minutes of underlinin the words to write..skip that.. then it was maths..did corrections and did some revision on the topic.. then it was english..o well, let's just say in the middle of the time while mr. Siva was teachin us english, my water bottle went droppin on the ground and rolling and rolling and rollin right infront of mr.siva.. he was like starrin at the water bottle.. siti,me,fatin,zulaikha was like smiling and giggin and laughin. i went takin my water bottle and so mr siva stare at me in a weird way.. the best thing is, after takin my water bottle, i was kinda so called ''blind'' bang myself on the small table and one of the guys laugh at me.. i was kinda embarrase..kept smilin to myself.. skipped the reading and recess.. here's come CPA. let me TALK about CPA!!.. worst of all.. starting we did out work in the files..and it all happens when mr.sulaiman ask one repesentative from each of our group to go to another group to find answers..but before that, fatin,sabariah,zulaikha and some others was being disturbed too... let me just say it in the simplest was aight*.. I HAVE NO TASTE FOR ALEX!!!!!!..EWWW...GROSS...SORRY, HIS AIN'T MY TYPE PLEASE FOR GOODNESS SAKE...DO YOU MIND???..HAHAHA..AND FATIN, NO OFFENCE YEAH.. PLEASE STOP SAYIN MY NAME INFRONT OF ALEX AND TRYIN TO MAKE HIM SIT BESIDE ME OR WADEVER IT IS..GRRRRRRR.. i'm tryin to concentrate on my studies here ya'll..soo please.. don't be a match maker..pffff...arf..... bingit tau!.. hahahahahhahahahahah...aniway, i've gotta wake up early tomorrow and be in school by 7.oo. and we, the prefects are allowed to wear home clothes.. wooohoo.. we're not gonna do the aces day.. yay!.. so yeah.. gonna chao for now..and forget everything that had happened today.

adios.

leave me alone
get out of my face
i'm tired in love
feelin so misplaced
time for you to go
you still know i'm better off on my own, oh
leave me alone

Friday, August 24, 2007

hey blog!.

long time no update huh...o well..here i go...nvr been bloggin..as i've been revising...though i check e-mails and go online for this week..but still i put my status to buzy..i continue revisin and doin school homework...oh yeah.. i've gotten back my common test papers...i've kinda improved my chinese a little..i've got 18/5o.. but still..it's GROSS!!..but my chinese teacher is gonna add up the marks for the oral.. so ain't really know wht's the exact total marks..dreading now...well, maths.. don't wanna say cuz it's as usual.. nvr gonna nail it.. unless i really try hard this time for my EOY... english, i've got 21/40 or 50 if i ain't wrong..second highest..WOOHOO..kekeke..oh yeah.. and the best thing is, yesterday we had Girls Guide.. wanted to go home but then..nahx..nvm... waited till 2.oo.. started the guides.. i went carvin a shape on the bar shop, out of the sudden i CUT MY TALLMAN(FINGER) ...!!! quite deep! and it's by accident.. =))..woohoo.. blood was droolin out and drippin all over the floor while runnin quickly to the wash room.. i was sobbin in pain.. THANK YOU amira and siti for helpin me out while i was in pain...went in the office.. mrs kua went applyin entiseptic on my finger.. kinda cryin and laughin.. siti was like'' bernadette, are you cryin are laughin'' LOL..seriously, that was my first time i cut myself..and it bled like nobody's business. hahahaha..from then on, i stop doin the carvin...didn't do anithin but to read the english book that i've bought...pffff..o well, now my finger is left with a ''BEAUTIFUL'' scar...woohoo..still hurts but not as much as yesterdays....GROSS!.. felt like vomittin when i looked at my deep scar yesterday...pfff... so yeah... guess i'm gonna end here.. cuz gonna go off at 2.oo go and take a bathe WITHOUT touchin my scar..and 3.3o gonna leave for my dental appointment..today, i shall go read up the english book.. and mayb revise some of my subjects that i hate a little like EOA and maths and chinese.. x))..see ya.

i've got to move on and be who i am
i just don't belong here
i hope you understand
we might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
i gotta go my own way
don't wanna leave it all behind
but i get my hopes up
and i watch them fall everytime
another color turns grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away
i've leaving today cause i've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok

i've got to move on and be who i am
i just don't belong here
i hope ou understand
we might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
i gotta go my own way

Friday, August 17, 2007

hey!..it's been long ever since i've blogged..well, those few days, i've been a good gurl.. as in after school, come back home straight and revise my work and do my homework, though i always go on the internet BUT to check my mails only.. other then that, i continued revisin and studyin alright..X)) hehe..tht's why on that day, when mdm tang asked us to close our maths book after we have gone through what we've learn and i was like still browsin at it and she was like'' Bernadette.... you don't have integrity'' i'm like'' whatever..''.. aniway..those few days, i was hacin my common test..i'm gonna flunk my maths as well as MT i guess...and that's the same news..and...let me see.. oh and as usual, me,fatin and siti are always laughin and makin tones of stupid jokes..and emmm sabariah lost her voice...shhhhhhhT*...hahaha..and let's just say there's like some new goin on..which is alex(our class) his been likin me... and i know of cuz.. GOSH!!! can he like just give it up on me ya'll!!..grrr... niway, i just dun like the NERDS and the WEIRDOS company pte ltd(accordin to siti). hahaha...*siti, relaxs aight* if ur readin my blog.hahaha*.. oh and i won't gonna fall for him..it's a N.O NO!....no way ya'll.... why am i talkin bout that.... o well, and damn!! startin from nxt week, our class is gonna have a remedial class durin readin period and it's english!! it's either this comin monday or wednesday.. GRRR.....hate it!!..n i hate it when mr.SIVA ask me to pin up my frindge! and sometimes he'll purposely come findin me and check me up...pffffffffffffffffff....<---( that was what i did durin maths common test..).. yesterday imran just flirt at me as in he winked at me..OMG!!. am i that popular that i have lots of fans... no way!!...oh ya...today, right after school, sabariah and i accompanied amira back to her house to change.. then headed to parkway cuz ms rachel wanna treat us swensens.. once reached, met them.. ate different flavors of ice-cream..*pity that i ain't got my nokia phone 3230..MISS MY PHONE SOOO MUCH!! SCREW MY MUM.. AHAHHAHA. if not i would have taken pictures of te ice-cream and put it on my blog and people will just drool out saliva..hahah*..aniway, after that, both amira and i headed back to eunos.. we saw sholihan..we chatted awhile.. then came rizal,ridzuan,asri and hussein.. they asked us to tag along but we can't as amira wanted to meet someone..ehem*.btw, they were goin to east coast.. it's been such a long time ever since i've been there....should have tag along man.. niway, waited for that someone with amira for sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long...it's rainnin.. such a nice weather to sleep.. while waitin, i was kinda crazi makin stupid jokes together with amira.. around 4 plus that someone came..finally i could go back. few hours later amira sms me sayin
''bernadette, you know what.. from the time he came, he just keep quiet..never talk..i want to ask him whether his steadin with me but i didn't say.. eei..gerum aku..sholihan more bagus* in malay*.. i replied her.. it's a long stroy which i don't wanna brag too much cuz i dun feel like it..and that IRRITATIN FREAK EUGENE!! AFTER FnN, HE PURPOSELY USES HIS BAG TO HIT MY STOMACH..GRRRRRRRRRR... CAN'T IMAGINE IF NXT YEAR OUR CLASS IS GONNA COMBINE WITH 3 NOB.. i'm tellin you, i'm gonna go NUTS with him.. my temper will be like an animal which is hmmm lion?? or.. cheetah??.. seriously... i can't deal with this kinda guy...this year for my class, 3 is enough for me!! gettin annoyed by those 3 guys.. don't add another one..if not i'll gooo super crazy.. hahah.. o well, like that my mum always say.. try my best! study hard! and get the hell out of that class to avoid that *cuker!!...=#.... niways, guess that's all for now.....it's a rest day for me today and mayb tomorrow i'll start doin my maths homework aight*...PEACE!..

mi amor i'm not sure of the right words to say
maybe this simple words will do best to best explain
what i feel in my heart, what i feel more each day
how to make you see
how to let you know
how to see how to say
with words you understand
words that get right through to your heart
here's a place to start

tu amor
i will always be
tu amor
means to world to me
estaras siempre en mi corazon
you're the one in my soul
and i live for
tu amor
tu amor

mi amor, love you more with each look in your eyes
maybe this simple words will to best to best describe
what i feel in my heart, what i'll feel for all time oh
how to make you see
how to let you know
how to see how to say
how i need you so
with words you understand
words that get right through to your soul
words that let you know

tu amor
i will always be
tu amor
means the world to me
estaras siempre en mi corazon
you're the one in my soul
and i live for
tu amor

you're the one i need in my arms
believe me these words i say
are words that come straight from my heart
how do i make you believe
nothin els seems as much
as what you mean to me

Sunday, August 12, 2007

SORRY, BUT DAMN!!

SERIOUSLY, I'VE BEEN DISTRACTED AND I'VE BEEN AWAY FROM STUDIES EVER SINCE WE HAVE NDP HOLIDAYS... seriously.... ain't no lies man..let's just say i've only revised like 5-12% of english.. 10% of maths, 0% on eoa and 0% on chinese.. SEEEEEEEEE how that atrocious it was...but then, i've read at least 25% of my english story book to at least keep me accupied and ready for my english common test that's tomorrow...and what i've been distracted from is hangin out with mum.. watchin of singapore history on television..goin out to the movies at night with my sis, her bf n the bf's bro.. plus today's headin to VIVO to hav lunch with my grandparents and aunt and walk around.. GOSH!!! I'M SOOOOOOOOO DEAD MAN!!...i'm sooo gonna be in HOT CHILLI PEPPER SOUP.. o well, C'MON!! BUCK UP GURL!!.. fine! from tomorrow onwards.. it's gonna be my muggin time as well as stressin time!.. gotta revise on my common test..EOY examination are like 2 months away and not 2 YEARS!!... sooo.. guys, i'll not be online from tomorrow onwards!! shall be muggin on my schoolwork!!... only weekends and i MEAN IT!!..does that sounds OK! to you?.. tomorrow is SCHOOL DAY!!. woohoo!! can't wait to be havoc with my friends.. not really havoc but just crazi..i've just got back like 1hr ago and just had my dinner like 50 minutes ago and finally i've packed my bag 10 minutes ago.. and now i'm updatin my blog. after that, it's like gettin ready for school and comes to SERIOUS BUSINESS!!.. gotta be hard workin as an ANT!!..
and not forgettin, today, i saw 3 HOT MAT SALLEHS(FOREIGNER) at my age.. 2 of them was kinda lookin at me.. ahhahahhaha.. my aunt and mum was like'' i know.. i saw them..their very handsome'' when i told them that i saw 3 hot guys..x)) * stop it bernadette!..ur suppose to be concentratin on studies and not lookin at hot guys.*.. wakakaka.. o well, i shall go online for like half an hour or 1 hour till 9.30 then it's time for bed yo!!. till then

see ya. good luck for your common test people.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

yo! wassup!!.. o well, let's just say today our school celebrated NDP and racial harmony together.. went to school very early cuz we need to get ready for the parade..skipped that part..after all the students have assemble at the basketball court, we started our parde.. the student behind us was kinda chit-chattin away.. some were even laughin n gigglin... oh n btw, two of our guides fainted in the middle of the parade...GRRR.. cuz of them i didn't do my squard attention properly..niway, after the whole thing, went to the toilet to change into our green t-shirts..mine was a sleeveless t-shirt and i wore white skirt..friends of mine were like'' sexy seh...'' '' lawa(pretty)'' and all..kinda shy but i just smiled to them.. best thing is, after changin, the girls, went puttin on make up and all. then went to the hall.. as usual, the guys look at us and we pretended that we saw some pretty stuff outside.. we watched a small concert.. after the whole thing, me,fatin,amira,siti and sabariah went galeventin outside..first stop, eunos.. saw amin,afiqah,raudhah,sholihan and all.. afiqah n raudhah was like'' ceyyy bernadette pretty seh..feewit..''...skip that part.. went bugis.. took some pictures in the bus and touch up as in the make up..was laughin and gigglin on the way the bugis and in the bus.. guess the people in the bus was sooooo fustrated by our loud laughter and shoutin..LOL...first up, this teenage guy boarded the bus..he kinda sat last 4th row from behind..he turn and looked at me for few seconds then he looked at the front..let's just say amira n fatin came helpin me out with the touch up of eye liner and all.. the teenage guy turn back n looked at me then at fatin again.. he did some actions which i don't really know how to describe.. we got down bugis..went takin neoprints.. after takin, we kinda not soo expert in the japanese words on what they meant as in when we wanna edit the picture and all.. though there's some chinese words but still i suck at it.. hahaha.. in the end, we chose bout 3-4 pictures the rest went missin in action. *winks*..after takin neoprint, went walkin around... and siti and i was just admirin those foreigners(mat sallehs).. LOL..X)).. later, we went mcdonalds.. on thw way to mcdonalds, i saw eunice,rong zong, imran n others which i can't remember their names..thank god they didn't see me. if not they'll go'' sexy babe '' or wadever it is.. around 11 or 12 plus, elfiee and izzat came.. elfiee ate mcdonalds too..as usual, when the mat salleh's walk pass siti was like'' bernadette...*turns head at mat salleh guy*''... after lunch, we followed elfiee and izzat where ever that their goin till 2 plus.. oh yeah one more thin, bout fatin.. hahaha..sorry ek.. all of us was in the library, chose our books to read while elfiee went sleepin..
fatin was like'' nette, aku nak kentot( bernadette, i wanna fart)''..
me:'' iyerlar''
fatin'' *farted*.

both fatin and i was laughin like crazi.. izzat look at me as if i'm crazy and indeed i am.. then i controlled myself.. try not to laugh my head off...
o well, i'm like sooo exaushted right now after bein a early bird today and hangin out with those crazi n cool friends of mine.. oh n NOT FORGETTIN ON REVISIN ON MY STUDIES.. mayb tomorrow.. today i'm just tooo sloppy... niway, i needa doze off for awhile before dinner is served. chaos.

i always needed time on my own
i never thought i'd
need you there when i cried
and the days feel like years when i'm alone
and the bed where you lie
is made up on my side

when you walk away
i count the steps that you take
do you see how much i need you right now?

when your gone,
the pieces of my heart are missin you
when your gone
the face i came to know is missin too
when your gone,
the words i need to hear
to always get me through the day
and make it ok
''i miss you''

i've never felt this way before
everything that i do
reminds me of you
and the clothes you left - they lie on the floor
and they smile just like you
i love the things that you do

you walk away
i count the steps that you take
do you see how much i need you right now?

we were made for each other
out here forever
i know we were
yeah, yeah
and all i ever wanted was for you to know
everything i do, i give my heart and soul
i can only breath; i need to feel you here with me
yeah

when your gone
the pieces of my heart are missin' you
when your gone
the face i came to know is 'missin' too
when your gone
the words i need to hear
will always get me through the day
and make it okay
'' i miss you''

Friday, August 03, 2007

people, if u can't listen to the song, sorry.. cuz i don't really know what's wrong with it though i put it in the right place..

SAY YO!

SEAN KINGSTON

YOUR WAY TOO BEAUTIFUL GIRL..

LOL...what am i talkin bout...niway..today's friday and like duh..finally mdm lim was present.. if it's wasn't her, then another teacher will come relievin us..i dun really like that teacher..cuz his borin and i can doze off anitime.. niway, had p.e... first we played with the guys..then the team was gettin lesser and lesser and soo atikah decided to play against the sec 1s versus the sec 3s. but we only played for them for awhile and i guess they started complainin to the teacher bout us as in sayin that we're too rugged or somethin like that..their kinda a loser..shhht!.. hhaha.. then had FnN.. was such a bore..2hrs in the computer lab...zzzz..almost doze off but friends of mine kept me awake..seriously, i kept yawnin and yawnin...skip that school thingy.. cuz today it's nothin really much... o well, let's just say the truth aight*... i've been revisin but not properly as now days i've been comin home, takin a bathe, havin a room service cuz my show hav started, after my show, went checkin my e-mails and blogs for awhile... started doin my homework though sometimes it's kinda pilin up these days as our common test are comin and EOY exams are like 2 months away.. time passes real fast people..i didn't really revise hard enough this few days.. soo..my plan for tomorrow,

• sleep longer tomorrow as in wake up late..

• skip my lunch if i want to.

• try stayin awake..
• if i wanna use the computer is only for checkin my mails and for bloggin if i have to..if not just listen to my mp3 player with minimum volume.
• revise as much as i can for maths..as i've got a maths test comin up nxt comin mon or whenever

sooo.. i guess that's what i'm gonna be doin tomorrow.. and o yeah one more that i've forgotten.. i've not sketch finish my english compo bout tsunami in pencil b4 i could write it down on the paper itself..rest assure i ian't gonna stress myself out..but EOY,.. haha..gonna work even harder and u'll see me bein stressed out,fallin sick and havin a fever and all..X))... and yeap..as usual... had NDP parade drillin for this comin 8 august. of cuz not forgettin standin under the HUMID GLARIN SUN.. the heatness that my face is facin.. not only me but the guides on my left hand side plus the ST.John's and npcc's.. Best thing is.. ha ha.. i've got SUNBURN..and i'm right now kinda tann..woohoo!!...monday is gonna be the same thing...NDP drillin..sunburn again..if we don't do well this comin monday, we'll do it again on tuesday and if we practise again on tuesdays it will be like 3 days of sun tannin after school at the basketball court right under the HUMID GLARIN GAZIN sun...it's a MUST for me to remember to put on my sun tann lotion..=))... thank you!! my dad is back.. and it's the startin 4th or 5th or 6th or wadever number it is world war.. fightin over the computer and television.. arfff....ABHORE IT WHEN THAT HAPPENS.. CUZ IT'S LIKE FREAKIN ME OUT.. HE JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR ME TO GET AWAY FROM THE COMPUTER!!.. he'll be like'' is it my turn?..yes?..'' few minutes later, he'll comin standin behind my back pressurin me..if not he'll be infront of the tv sayin'' OI..FASTER LEH...ISSIT MY TURN'' when i alreadi say'' wait for awhile''...or'' go watch your soccer or golf''...and of cuz my mum is backin up with my dad OBVIOUSLY!!..and of cuz she'll back up for me but not totally!!!...and like i've got this suggestion... '' MUM, I SUGGES THAT U BUY A LAPTOP FOR DAD SO THAT HE WON'T COME PESTERIN AND PRESURRISIN ME OR FIGHTIN WITH ME OVER THE COMPUTER..SERIOUSLY SPEAKIN'' i would really suggest to you that...niway, my target for tomorrow is, complete my english research homework before my dad comes back, fightin with me over the computer and makin noise and all and then my tempreture starts boilin and i'll start sayin all kinds of bad rubbish bout my parents and sayin all sorts of stuff like wanna run away from home and all..so yeah.. that's my TARGET YA'LL!!...today is a day-off for me from disgustin homework and revisin.. tomorrow i shall face those things that i'm suppose to stick to it... and b4 i start braggin any longer i shall stop here aight*.. till then.. see ya babes and dudes..

i never felt nothing in the world
like this before
now i'm missing you
& i'm wishin that you
would come back through my door
why did you have to go?
you could have let me know
so now i'm all alone,
girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
with you not around
it's a little bit more than i can stand
and all my tears they keep runnin down my face
why did you turn away?

so why does your pride make you run and hide?
are you that afraid of me?
but i know it's a lie what you keep inside
this is not how you wanted to be

so baby i will wait for you
cause i don't know what els i can do
don't tell me i ran out of time
if it takes the rest of my life

baby i will wait for you
if you think i'm fine it just ain't true
i really need you in my life
no matter what i have to do i'll wait for you

it's been a long time since you called me
(how could you forget bout me)
you got me feeling crazy(crazy)
how can you walk away,
everything stays the same
i just can't do it baby
what will it take to make you come back
girl i told you what it is
& it just ain't like that
why can't you look at me,
your still in love with me
don't leave me cryin

o well, guess it's enough.. cuz it's a real long song...kinda lazy to type it all out.