heylo.

it's 12.01pm. waiting for the peeps who is repairin the aircorn to get outta my mum's room b4 i can brush up. anyway, i wanna make this clear. from today onwards till i go for holiday, i wanna revise and study for some of my subjects. i wanna read up. n if i can, i wanna do my holiday assignment as well. that's my plan. seriously speakin, these few days, or weeks, i've been slackin and lazin around like deep shiat. watchin movies on youtube, chattin, playin games n all sorts of stuff. yeayea. only i knew it myself. my mum don't really know. so yeah. from today, i'll try not to blog or go online. only to listen to music just to chill myself. till then,

i have to go.
gonna start dwelling on revision as well as studyin n homeworkin after the aircorn peeps have left. till then

see ya.

Labels: revisions, studyin in progress. will not be bloggin unless i feel like it.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

hello...

today's the 29th of may and it's 9.59Am..

today, supposedly there's a english practise oral in school. but ended up not going. let's just say the i couldn't sleep last night. tossing and turning like crazy.. couldn't fall asleep till i had a miss call, i jerked up and headed back tryin to sleep till i finally did. LOL. -.-''.. at around 7.00 the aircorn disrupted my sleep.. let me just say my aircorn almost exploded. luckily my mum jerk up and quickly off it. it's been years and months n still we've not change the aircorn. anyway, from then on i continued my beauty sleep till 8.30, gotten a msg from fatin saying that there's oral practise today.

*phone vibrates, jerked up me and got me into a heart attack*
fatin: Nette, there's sch today right?
me: give me a fright..i'm not going hahahk. amira also not goin..
fatin: what seh. go ar..today there's oral practise.. fine arh.. lazy bum. hate you!
me: hahak. is siti goin?.. but today is only practise right.. what time must we reach?
fatin: 9.. dunno.. p8 low arh
me: ouhk. see first lur..keke.

lol. from then on, i couldn't sleep and so i woke up went to the loo and sat in there for few minutes n thinkin whether to go or not to go. LOL. minutes later, my hp jerked me with a msg.

*bzzzz....bzzzzz*
siti: Nette, you goin for class?
me: lazy to go urh. ha ha. i'm now at home. thinkin to go or not to go. you goin?
siti: going. coz yesterday my family faught. n so i don't wanna stay at home. i rather go out.
me: ouh.. mayb i'm goin. if not i'm MIA. ha ha.

in the end, i decided to stay at home. right now i'm blogging. later on, i'm goin to revise the subjects that i'm weak in and mayb start on my holiday homework. =).. and yesterday i was suppose to go to school. and this is how it goes

*alarm clock rang*

*zzzzzzzzz*
mum: bernie, don't you have to go to school?
me: nohmm..
mum: *silents*...

1 minute later
mum: do you have to go to school?
me: stomach pain.
mum: don't be lazy.. wake up, take panadol and i'll send you to school
me: argg hmmmm..* still layin on bed with eyes close
mum: *wakes up*..brush up and all, got dressed* you take responsibility for yourself k
me:*silents and went back to sleep*

LOL.. i know that's SUPER BAD!!!! AND NOT COOL OK...people who are my blog, i advice you not to follow my footsteps. dun be in my shoe. it's not worth your life yeah. hees*.... anyway, yesterday i really had a stomach ache ok. at around 11 plus i text fatin sayin that her umbrella is with me. bla bla bla. got changed, eunos mrt-ed, met fatin,siti amira,sabariah and syazwan. sat for awhile, siti,amira and sabariah headed home. so, in the end, fatin,syazwan and i headed to orchard as he wanted to pass his dad some stuff. dam! it was rainning cats and dogs. my shoe was drenched. stepping on the puddle of water, squeezing through crowded path filled with peeps pushin like hell and walkin slowly.. grrr... after syaz pass his stuff, then went to his chalet at parsir ris. *ehem. stomach pain still can go chalet.. ehem*. haha. and without tellin my mum but instead, my grandmother.bastered me. LOL*. fatin and i was like talking and gigglin while in the MRT. syaz went all silent but he talked.. not much though. once reached, went into his chalet but not right inside. sat outside at the doorstep. bla bla bla. whatever.. and so fatin and i were thirsty. both of us went for a walk and bought drinks for ourselves. but of cuz syaz followed us. i felt weird cuz syaz kept askin me where we wanna go. like i'm the host of the day?? ..-.-''.. i was like'' why ur look at me? ha ha''. whatever that is, and so i turn back, OMG!!! I SAW HAKEEM!!! and his friends like faiz, syuhada and the rest sec 4n2 and 4n3 peeps. fatin and i went hidin in the toilet.. -.-''. in the end, i went in the chalet myself, took fatin's bag as well as mine and chao. reached home about 4 plus almost 5.. bath and all.. luckily i was home first b4 my mum. if not my head will land in d bin. LOL.. let's just say my mum came back at 5.20. phew!!!... alright. guess i've told you a long grandmother story.. the time now is 10.39am. i'm like sooo tired still. eyes can't open.. listenin to slow motion songs that makes me wanna dooze off again. so.. yeah.. till then gotta go. see ya peeps.


i've been waiting for my dreams to turn into something i could believe in
and i'm looking for the magic rainbow on the horizon i couldn't see it
until i let go, gave in love, watch all the bitterness burn
now i'm coming alive body and soul
feeling my world starts to turn

Thursday, May 22, 2008

hey blogger..

today's the 22 of may.

holidays are coming..but still we ain't allow to leave s'pore till the 31th may. there's XTRA classes like english,EOA,CPA and mathematics..our first lessons start if 8-10.00... from there we carry on with our cpa n maths. niway, i'm now addicted to folding stars. these few days i've been folding stars. even today durin mother tongue lesson and even while havin mhy oral conversation with my teacher. LOL. bet i'll flunk. cuz i skiped like 4-5 words and my conversation went hectic. as in it went hay wire. wasn't ready for it n so i just say whatever i can and whatever i have to say in my mind..just blare it out!!!.. then it was english. waited for mdm lim for like 30 minutes and she came. did letter reading and stuff.. then it was recess.. after recess we had CDP. was bored like hell.. did nothin but slack while the guys were playing the guitar noisily and disturbin us by sayin all sorts of rubbish. espeacially atikah.. their childish. then was CPA. did the workbook.. while listening to the explanation, afiq and i started folding stars.. mr.yeo was behind our row starring at afiq.. lol. as usual, me n afiq is always noisy n sometimes entertaining each other when we're bored half-way through lessons.. hees*. then it was MTECH. all the girls slept right through the lesson while me and fatin was texting each other usin my handphone. long story.. talking bout this and that and so on... today all the guide members.. but of cuz the senior guides, all came to my house to do a project for environment. i've not even started on my project yet.. what the hell is wrong with me. gettin lazier and lazier and lazier each days. i've not EOA work not done. plus the holiday assignments are given out. guess i'll have lots to do during the june holiday b4 i go somewhere... it's like the last minute booking trip.. better still, it's on my b'day that i'm leaving.. sooo.. right now, i'm practisin my guitar, learning how to play some songs and there goes i'm gonna start on my project. so yeah.. see yar.

adios amigo.

Labels: msn-ed is dead. from today. till after june if i can..

Sunday, May 18, 2008

i ABHORE today....kept on sneezing like no one els business.. it's like every few minutes i'll just sneeze outta sudden.. arggggggg!!!.... anyway, guess what, i'm still dwelling on my CPA homework since the day i check for homework in the school website. how clever is that.. lol.. but, i'm doodling on CEL 3 half-way through. bet i'll ever finish it by tonight at the rate i'm going through. haiz.... what the hack is wrong with me these few days... all i know is, i've been assigned too much assignment from teachers till i'm beginning to feel sooo slacken on doin my assignments...grrrrrrrrr... anyway, JUNE holidays are coming soon and my B'DAY is coming really soon!!!!!!!.. but still, bet we have to head back to school for some remedial b4 our mid-year exam starts on the 24th of june... o well, no matter what i am today or tomorrow, i'll try my very best to work hard and strive well.. cuz it's like we've left with 4 more months b4 our 'N' levels.. stress for it, score well, and we're outta this school and i'm outta and away from all those uppper levels guys that i've known n whom have been talking to me bout BGR!!! which i've had enough.. LOL... and 3 months for NDP.. *sigh*..... shoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooots!!!!!!...

I WANNA QUIT SCHOOL
I WANNA QUIT MY STUDIES
I WANNA QUIT EVERYTHING!!!!...

o well, nahx... just kidding..... if i say that to my mum, guess what, my head will land in the dustbin. =D....
it's 3.14pm right now.. having an hour or so break b4 i continue with my CPA. plus i have journal not done!! it's still asleep in my bag..never been touched. so yeah.. till then, i gotta go..chows.

who's that girl?
where's she from?
no she can't be the one
that you want
that has stolen my world
it's not real, it's not right
it's my day, it's my night
by the way
who's that girl livin my life?
oh no, livin my life

seems like everything's gthe same around me
then i look again and everything has changed
i'm not dreaming and so i don't kow why
i don't know why
i don't know why
she's everywhere i wanna be

who's that girl?
where she's from?
no she can't be the one
that you want
that has stolen my world
it's not real, it's not right
it's my day, it's my night
by the way
who's that girl livin my life?

Friday, May 16, 2008

hello blog.

today was a e-learning day. stayed home. woke up around 10.45??.. laze around then telok kurau-ed to my website and check out the homework that my teachers gaved. after checking, first one i did was cpa. dwell on cpa for like 1 hr and switched back to maths.. and it goes on. as in kept on switching every hour. lol. suddenly i felt sooo lethargic and stress out doin my work. and so i went to youtube and movie-ed for like the whole afternoon and then homework-ed back in the evening till i didn't know it was time for dinner and my mum had to give me a buzz and tellin me to go for dinner.. haiz... anyway, i'm having NDP practice tomorrow. and i have to report to sch by 7.45.. how early is that... arfffff... i'm like half-way through my CPA as well as maths.. how GROSSful is that.. pffft... mayb, right after bloggin, i'll start dwelling on my CPA. and if can, stay up abit later and dwell up a little on my maths cuz i don't think i'll be very active tomorrow after practise. u know... after practise, i'll just go for my bathe and land straight on my bed and sleep for like hours b4 dinner??.. guess so that is.. grr.. so yeah... right now is like 10.19pm, i'm bloggin while listeining evenescence- immortal song and with my CPA workbook, file, as well as maths txtbook and workbook laying on the table wide open. for now, i better get goin b4 it's too late. till then,

astalavista people.

my laziness is coming back to my habit.
stress n migraines are here.
nerves coming down my spine as i hear the word NDP.
it isn't 3 years but 3 months left to my performance.
i'm like freaking out for NDP.

this is the time when i needa shout HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

hello blog.

today is the day where everyone feels sick. firstly headed to school fine.. first period was P.E.. the girls, there's only me,sabariah,fatin,atikah and siti. so we didn't do anything but slack during p.e.. siti was groaning in pain. as in her stomach hurts.. fatin felt sick.. has fever.. while me, i felt quite giddy.. after P.E, it was maths lesson. did gramatica in .com lab. bla bla bla.. felt sleepy.. then it was mother tongue. wasn't in a mood. and so i shouted at eugene till alex have to ask me what's wrong with me. i told him i wasn't feeling well... whatever.. then it was english. had dictation. anyway, lemme cut it short. today was just a sickly day. after english, siti went home.. and Mtech, was kinda boring though some guys was planning a song that we must sing somewhere in term 2 anytime but during assembly.. oh and during CDP, me, atikah, zharif,syafa n some guys black jack-ed. =).. o well, the reason i was a little sick today is because i walked in the rain yesterday. almost drenched from head to toe. but thankfully the rain stopped half-way. hees*. and now i'm bloggin rather then revising and doin my homework. my tempreture for now is 37.5. weehee!. for now,

gotta go.
see ya.

trying hard to reach out
but when i'd try to speak out
felt like no one could hear me
wanted to belong here
but somthing felt so wrong here
so i'd pray
i could breakaway

Saturday, May 10, 2008

hey hey..
11/5/08

guess what. finally i've found my CPA workbook!! WOOHOO!!!.. yesterday i was acturlly too lethargic to even head out n be bothered to buy CPA book. but come to think of it, cpa helps us in future to do lots of stuff like learn how to make a website which we just did, make movies learn all parts of the computers and stuff like that.. it even help us in our EOA??.. sortta... ok whatever.. and so i woke up, slack for awhile.. at around 1 or 2 plus.. i tampines-ed to popular but darn it it's outta stalk. it's a coincidence that fatin and CT were coming to tampines too. met them at the MRT control station. waited for CT till bout 3 plus.. from then on, headed to the nokia shop to buy fatin's nokia ear piece. waited for quite long.. i was yawning away till i saw this Eiffing SUPER DUPER cute baby girl or boy i ain't sure.. but it's sure Eiffing cute with the hair comb up like punk rock... lol.. after buying fatin's ear piece, all of us took a bus all the way to seng kang popular.. still, it's outta stalk..GRRRR.... the branches left are toa payoh and bras basah. happens that CT is goin to toa payoh today.. so i pass the money to CT and she found my book!! woohoo...thank you2... o well, another thing is, i ain't got idea but now a days i feel that i'm always slacking and slacking. and i wait till after dinner then i'll start doodling on my work. am i too stress that i don't even wanna do my work?.. as in lazy???.... grrr....seriously speaking.. i'm like slacking now a days even though i've got tons or billion work to do or to revise.. haiz... o well, i'll try my best to revise and do much work as i can. i know that my mid-year exams are like nxt month but 24 june. and 5th june is my BIRTHDAY. plus my dad is planning for a holiday.. i don't know.. i'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooo having a migraine and heads spinning like shiat!!. soo yeah... i wanna try to revise and study and do whatever i can to my work yeah. but i'll start at 2.30. for now, i've gotta run and mayb do stupid stuff. LOL... chows.

sometimes i work on a scheme
but then it flips on me
doesn't turn out how i plan
get stuck in quick sand
no problem, can't be solved
once i get involved
i try to be delicate
then crash right into it
my intentions are good
sometimes just misunderstood

nobody's perfect
i gotta work it
i know in times i'll find a wa y
nobody's perfect

sometimes i fixs things up
but it all falls apart again
nobody's perfect

i might mixs things up
but i always get it right in the end.

next time you feel like .......... it's just one of those days
when you just can't seem to win
if things don't turn out the way you plan
figure something els out
don't stay down! try again!.

everybody makes mistakes
everybody has those days
everybody knows what, what i'm talking bout.....
everybody gets that way.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

hey!.

right now, i'm completely stressed out. migraine coming back obviously. lots of work gonna be given by teachers each freaking days. mid-years during the june's.. gotten back my Mother Tongue got 16/30. highest among all the guys. LOL. yesterday marine parade-ed to popular just to buy that CPA WORKBOOK for SEC 4 NT. but it's out of stalk. wanted to go to Tm but it happens when my EZ-link card left with like $2 plus. and i ain't got enough money to buy the book eventually after buying my stationaries that i needed. but then spend afew minutes at the magazine corner and was eye-ing at the Teens magazine which happens to have JONAS BROTHERS face at the coer page. was grinning from ear-to-ear. luckily no one saw. after that, looked at my watch, it's drewing near to 4.30 n i still went browsing happily at the magazine.. then walked out of popular and bus 15-ed home. missed the first bus. waited and waited. and acturlly saw my pri school mate which i wasn't really close with but knew her as we're from the diff class. 20 minutes later, another bus 15 came. i can say that the bus was like totally quiet and freaky. there's only me as in young teenager in the bus, 1 middle age lady, few old man, oh yeah 2 teenage boys in the bus. then later 2 foreigner workers boarded the bus. wanted to sleep as i was sleepy but afraid that i might miss my stop. so, kept my eyes open by looking everywhere, outside till i reached my stop. went home straight. rested and went out again to kembangan CC till bout 6 plus. then headed home.. anyway, tomorrow, after school, mayb i'm gonna go galeventing again to buy my CPA book at other branches. till then, i have to wash up and have some rest. chows.

Labels: MIA

Saturday, May 03, 2008

hello may! 1 more month and it's JUNE. 5th of june, it's my B'day and i'm turning sweet 16 really soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... so what if i'm 16??? i ain't got my own life yet???.. grr..

anyways, yesterday i screwed up my day!!!. and you know what, i feel like i aint got a truthful friend to talk to. or neither do i have any truthful friends.. let's just say, for now i only have amira and fatin. Siti is somehow not really close to me anymore. NO IDEA WHAT'S GOT INTO HER. and sabariah, she's changed alot. oh yeah.. speaking bout her, she told fatin n amira that i've changed. my character and all.. like hello!!! i'm what i am ok!!! i'm still ME!! so what if i mixs with those friends??... you jealous???? n n sabariah also say that i'm a F L I R T!! that AIN'T FREAKING DARN TRUE!!. has she got an issue with that??? just b cuz i've got quite a few guy friends or guys irritating me n i irritate back.. or i smile at them.. whatever.. HELLO!!! that's not called a flirt!!!!.. dam!!! anyway, all i know is, i know what the hack i'm doing and i AIN'T A FREAKING HELL FLIRT ALRIGHT!!. i just wanna do my best in my studies, get the hack outta this school, find new friends and a new fresh life! that's my plan yaw!! i had enough of this school. i mean my class.. it sucked!!!... i mean it's sooo childish. first day u talked and then the next day u fight. u know what i mean??? but for siti n i , it's different, she changed alot n don't talk to me much!!.. haiz... people are like sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ridiculously INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAKING SOOOOOOOOOOOO NUTS!!!!!!!!!!!. o well, yesterday was friday, screwed up my kebab.. went to grill and forgotten to check every few minutes and it turns are chaco. then i re-do it.. thanks to farah chang that she reminded me to check and turns out to be alright. then my sweet and sour chicken. did it the first time and the flour together with the egg turns out to be too soggy and to re-do. lastly my chicken pie looks like a rock!!!.. soo hard.. soo in the end, guess i'll screw up my 'N' level practical! i ain't a good cook ok!!! and i ain't ready... was nervous!!. left at 5.00.. went rushing room but no use!.. the people came to my house at 4.00 plus to spray the mosquito insecticide my bro's room, sis and mum's room. i can't go in to get my P.E attire. if i do, i'll faint. as the smell is too strong.. in the end, i didn't go to for my NDP. grrrrrrrrr... instead, i went out walking around my housing estate. as in kembangan... strolling around the estate till bout 6.20 then i headed back and had my bathe at the first floor where my cousin room used to be.. bad thing is, my mum and i slept at the living room.. so yeah. FINALLY, i'm back in my room and i can sleep on my comfatable bed again and sleeping on the floor makes my butt bone pain.!!!!!. alright then, i've said my peace and now

chows!.