hello!!!..

o well, i've just came back from school like 1hr ago and had my bath and everything.. today was such a chaotic day for me. early in the morning i went hay-wire. and here it goes.

*alarm clock rang:'' ti ti ti ti''*
*mum stopped the alarm clock from ringing and pass it to me.*
*looked at the time'' 6.35''.. headed back to sleep*

sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep..

Time, 7.15.

first thought, thinkin that today was monday and we can go to school late. * close my eyes*
*was dreamin and threw the alarm clock on the floor* then i jerked up thinkin'' today is monday... what do we have..... OH YA!!!!! SHIAT!!!! COMMON TEST!!!!...*called siti*

me:'' SITI, WHERE ARE YOU?''
siti:'' i'm in the bus''
me:'' SHIAT!!! I'M STILL AT HOME N JUST WOKE UP!! WHAT TIME SCHOOL STARTS?
siti:'' 7.50 but must report to school by 7.40''
me:'' SHOOTS.. I'M STILL AT HOME...ARGGG''
siti:'' quick urh ''
me:'' KK...*HANG THE PHONE DOWN N THROW IT ONE SIDE*

wash and brush up quickly.. got changed and rushed outta the house and in my mind i've forgotten something and it came out and that is '' OH YA SHIT!! MY BROWNIEEEE!!''...
then i rush to the bus stop.. NO BUS!!!!
i said to myself'' ARGG... NO BUS.....*LOOKED AT WATCH*..SHIT..LATE ALREADI!!''

finally bus 15 came and boarded the bus.. finally reached school, ON THE DOT! MEANS, 7.40 BUT 1 MINUTE LATE.. and still soo nice of the teacher to let me in.' haha... was perspiring like cats n dogs yaw!!..n i was penting like a dog hunting for water. LOL.... what's wrong with me man... arg!!!!! I'M INSANE!!!! would nvr ever forget this incident.. n one thing is, last night was buzy doing maths homework till 10 plus n i read up my EOA only afew chapters but nothing went in my head.. cuz i was rushing.. sooo.. GONNA SCREW UP MY EOA SERIOUSLY.. AND BIG TIME!!!.. U'LL SEE MY RESULTS SOON. DOWN THE DRAIN IT GOES.. WOOHOO!!... o well, gotta run.. wanna revise maths.. chows.

Labels: gotta move on and be who i am. and i wanna go my own way.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

hey hey.

not suppose to be blogging.... should be doodling and screwing up my maths.. but then.. here's what i wanna say '' sorry to my friends like siti,amira and sabariah and atikah. or whoever it is. but sometimes i just that


FRIENDSHIP SUCKS ALOT AT TIMES. SERIOUSLY. =)). JUST FEEL LIKE HAVING NORMAL FRIENDS AND 1 CLOSE FRIENDS WHOM CAN REALLY UNDERSTAND MY FEELINGS AND LIFE. C'MON MAN. IT'S JUST A SMALL MATTER. WHy MAKE IT SUCH A HUGE BOMB AND LEAVE IT UNKNOWN AND NOT BOTHERING BOUT IT. HAIZZZ..

o well.. i wanna expose myself to studies more then any other stuff if i could one day. and i wanna be SINGLE!!. i mean just have normal friends to chit-chat with.. do things together as in study and all. but normal friends yeah??. sorry if i happen to be like that. i wanna be myself. and at least find one really close friend whom can understands me better. o well, it's 7.46pm and i've been doin my work since just now. and i shall continue doodlin on my maths. soo yeah.. see ya!

WAIT!!!.. b4 i run away, wanna say. this friday is a good friday plus i hav two weekends. i wanna use that time to study n read up my EOA if i can. cause this fri-sun my mum n i hav quite a few numbers of errands to run. kinda buzy. soo if i hav the timr i'll read up EOA. cuz my target is i wanna get 1 U grade and that is maths. for that my mum understands. can forget bout it. the rest, i don't wanna hav U grades!!..so yeah. target is only ONE U GRADE!!!.

so times are scraping, sink so low,
i'm shocked at what your capable of
and if this is a coronation,
i ain't feeling the love,
cause we are all a bunch of animals
that never payed attention in school
so tell me all about your problems
i was killing before killing was cool.

lyrics from : My Chemical Romance. ( EMO songs.)

Friday, March 14, 2008

hey blog..

today was just a bad day for me..what's wrong with me... WAKE UP!!!... mayb i'm just stressed out or worried or nervous when doing my dreamweaver... believe it or not... i cried half-way while mr.sulaiman was helpin or scolding me.. haizzz..... mayb i'm just not ready for the coursework???... ARGGGGG..... i ain't got idea!! like what Siti said... try my best.. do the basic first... all the scolding thingy is a way of improvement.. o well... i just don't wanna think about it. let my mind rest for two days.. and here comes another stressing out of weekdays studying and revising.. n now here's a song lyrics of what i feel.

2'o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
can't get no rest, keep walking' round
if i pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, i can get to my sleep
i can think that we just carried on

this is the hardest story that i've ever told
no hope, no love, no glory
happy endings gone forever more
i feel as if i feel as if i'm wasted
and i'm wasting everyday

Thursday, March 13, 2008

heyyo blog.

nvr been blogging cuz was away for camp last week 3 days 2 nights camp in school. overall i should say it was fun. got mosquito bites n rashes.. there was a campfire night and confident walk at night..DUH...had fun being a senior campers helping out. haha. came back straight slept like the whole day till in the middle of the night n woke up.. LOL and head back to snoozing again.. next day had english oral. dragged my foot to school n with my eyes half-open n felt like sleeping.. the good thing is, i think i did well for my oral.. only that one sentence i stopped for quite long n tht minus afew marks. n for the conversation part, i almost screwed it up but then i came up with a few ideas and started imaginating stuff n talk..mdm lim was smiling.. hees*.. aniway, after the oral, amira, siti and fatin came to my house and went insane... we had a play skit. siti being a mother, fatin being a sister and amira being a baby. it's crazy i tell you that. but funny. =)).. tuesday is the only day i had a break from school and Wednesday plus today i aheaded back to school for our CPA dream weaver coursework. create a website of our own.. 9 hrs in school..these two days heading back to school made me felt like slacking and a feeling of laziness to do my holiday assignment.. haiz.. o well, by hook or by crook i'll have to stay up n finish my holiday assignment tomorrow after school.. cuz i wanna enjoy my last two weekends b4 school re-opens and b4 i start to stress myself out again..so for now, my mum is watching some cantonese DVD and i'm like slacking and chilling right in front of the computer happily blogging and listenin to emotional songs and sentimental songs.. for now, gotta chaos n wash up aight

once in your life you find someone
who will turn your world around
bring you up when you're feeling down.

ps:''I HAD ENOUGH OF MESSAGING. IT'S EITHER I SAID SOMETHING BAD BUT JOKINGLY N THEY BEHAVE LIKE SMALL LITTLE KIDS WHOM GETS SENSITIVE EASILY.. ANOTHER ONE IS MESSAGING THEM IS LIKE MSGING THE WALL. LIKE WHAT MALAYS SAY'' HAUS.. DAH BIASE BUBUAL SORANG!!!!'' for now, i dun feel like msging people.

chaos.

Thursday, March 06, 2008

HEYYO!!!!.

well well well......just what can i say... tomorrow is camp day and woohoo!! i'm just starting to adore camp soo much.. dunno why... but i just LUV CAMP!!!..(semangat ngan camp).. anyway.. as usual, been doing homeworks/revising/reading n stuff like that till i've completely slipped off my mind that i have to bring my thumbdrive and give it to ms kua!! and talking bout thumbdrive.. SHOOOOOOOOOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!... arggggg.... i've forgotten to see mr. yeo after school today to backup my thumbdrive!!!! arggg!!!!!!.. i shall go tomorrow by hook or by crook!!!... DARN IT MAN!!!...b4 i go LUNATIC again..., this is the last day i'm bloggin.. and i'm off to camp tmr till sunday. and it's like a busiest day for me next week during the march holidays. i only hav 1 day off which is on tuesday.. n i'm half-way done with my english holiday assignment...how smart... oh and i'm starting to feel a sign of laziness.. as in doing my english holiday hmwk. don't know why but yeah..but, no way, i'm gonna tell my brain that.. o well, i shall do my homework mayb right after bloggin or right after dinner.. at least complete half of my assignment b4 i go for camp.. hmmmm.... let me see...... school? nothin much.. but starting to hate zurhie. his just such a nuisance n his like WHATEVER!!!.. his funny...NOT... lalalallalallalalala. i've just got back my report card. my maths n EOA is like down the drain. but i think if i ain't wrong, i improved my EOA. got 30 plus but still a U grade. FINALLY, i've nailed my chinese!!.. Grade A.. weehee!!!...needa improve on my english plus FnN nxt. n work EXTRA HARDER for EOA.. make myself stressed out again.. last thing, i just LOVE sitting at the back n last row.. LOL.. but except for when zharif gets me irritated n annoyed. but other then that, i love my place.. HAHAHAHHAK.. alright then.. i shall stop here and find a school bag since my bro has taken away his school bag from me as he wanna USE IT... like as if he ain't got other bags.. n he AIN'T GOIN TO SCHOOL ANYMORE!!! EXCUSE MOI!!!... argggg..if i ain't wrong, i saw few school bags in his room. why can't he use those!! WHATEVER!...... gotta run.

it doesn't matter what people say
and it doesn't matter how long it takes
believe in urself and you'll fly high
and it only matters how true you are
be true to urself and follow ur heart

Saturday, March 01, 2008

Hey!!

it's the beginning of March. and our exams are like few months away.. i've been seriously revising n havin like 3-5 times of migrain.. took panadol lots of times.. for today i woke up very late which is in the afternoon at around 1.15. the reason is i always sleep late as i revise n did some studyin... anyway... schools nothin much but always with the CPA,EOA and FnN corsework.. soo pressurising n it's stressing me out.. not only that but homeworks are like piling up.. bags gettin heavier each days.. by then i'm gettin all the giddiness and headaches. grrr.. it's just feels so frustrating.... well.. that's life all about yeah...it's like 12.11AM and i'm still awake updatin my blog.. n oh yeah nxt Friday till Sunday i'll not be at home as i've got combine camp! woohoo!!.. i'm startin to adore camps man.. no idea why but yeah...mayb it's b cuz i feel like i'm being jailed when i'm at home. that's why i guess.. i'll feel restricted as in i can't hang out with my friends as much as i want to. and i can't come back after 6.. have to be home b4 6.. if not, i'll have a call from my mum wonderin where in the world i am. LOL.. so yeah... guess i'll hav to stop here and wash up.. get ready to turn in aight*. till then

see ya guys..

and if you love me
you'd hold me in your arms where i belong
so while i'm feeling strong
i sing you one last song

let me ask time has passed
do you feel this could last
if you don't, why then stay
take your wings, fly away
i love you way too much
to wanna be the one who brings you down

and if you want me, you'd show me
that your love is for real
and if you love me
you hold me in your arms where i belong
so while i'm feeling strong
i sing you one last song.